You know, five months ago that girl was my brother, and I was that girl...
Although we were twins, we were and are very different: he was an athletic boy, I was a chubby girl. But five months ago I found a scroll with a one-shot spell at a flea market. A spell to swap bodies between blood relatives. I thought about it for a couple of days, but in the end I did: I used the spell on my brother, without telling anyone, pretending to be as shocked as he was. I know I did a horrible thing, but try to understand me... I always hated being a girl, being chubby and shortsighted, being pathetic at every sport. And I also had another reason. Both my brother and I, being eighteen, dreamed of going to college next year to study law, but our family can't afford it... Well, he, or rather "his body", got a scholarship for his merits in football! I couldn't bear to be "left behind" by my twin, while he could fulfill my dream of studying law! So yes, I stole his body and his life. And I lied to him and our parents about it. We decided to keep it a secret, "hoping to find a way to get back to normal soon".
I was hoping my brother would adjust to his new life as my sister, and that we could both happily continue our new paths. But he, or rather "she", didn't. She fell into a terrible depression. She didn't leave home for 4 months (the latter part of our senior year and most of the summer), cried most nights, gained weight (becoming even chubbier), stopped talking to almost anyone. She didn't even leave her room for our 19th birthday, two months ago! She hated having to wear glasses even more than I did. She couldn't accept her out of shape, shorter and weaker body. She especially hated her period: she passed out the first time!
I felt terribly guilty. I was hoping that after a couple of difficult and weird weeks she would start moving on, but she didn't. Then finally a month ago she started going out of the house again, every now and then, wearing men's clothes. It was already a big step! She started seeing a couple of our best friends again. She started to live again, little by little.
Looking at her around other people it is clear that she is a bit confused about boys and her feelings. Now I like girls, so I guess she likes boys. And for the past ten days, I've noticed that a friend of ours, Jake, is showing her particular attention. And I think she likes it. I don't think anything has happened between the two, I think my "sister" isn't even ready for a kiss yet, but I think texting Jake makes her happy. She has even started wearing a bit of makeup for a couple of days! Someone wants to look pretty to impress a cute boy eheheh...
Seeing her smile while looking at the phone is a wonderful going-away present. That's right, I'm leaving for college tomorrow! I am so excited! Parties, girls, interesting lessons, it will be great! And seeing that my sister is on the road to recovery is a breath of fresh air for my conscience. I'm sure when I get home in a few months, she and Jake will be a couple. And my conscience will be even lighter. And then, in a few years, maybe when she has a couple of beloved children, I might as well finally tell her the truth, hoping for her forgiveness. But for now, a smile is more than enough.
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